bishyguy

Just sticking my head in to say "hi" to my followers. The shorter days and long nights kind of zap my ambition to the point that about all I do on the laptop is watch my Facebook account and play endless games of Free Cell.

Having Seasonal Affected Disorder really sucks, to say the least. During the day, I'm normal functioning, and productive. Come nightfall, I'm antsy at times, lethargic at others, and the worst part, the second my head hits the pillow, I'm WIDE AWAKE! I'm worse when the weather is like it has been these last few days: warm, wet, and cloudy. Give me typical cold, snowy weather, and I'm good. So, yeah, I have up years, I have down years. This.....is a DOWN year.

Ok, enough of my bitching.

I hope all of you have a great Christmas! Since there aren't any grandkids to celebrate with, wife and I will be volunteering with the local ambulance from 7 am to 7 pm.

See you when the days start getting longer!

Love to all . Scott

As much as I'd like to, I can't journal as often as I'd like to. My more prolific days a few months ago were back during a time when I was assigned to a project and didn't exactly have to give it my 100%, undivided attention. I'd think of something, develop it, and type it in on my Droid keypad, often with some interesting results.

Now, my work assignment is not only taking up 100% of my work day, but now I'm working 10 hour shifts to boot.

So, I was excited to know I was going to be away this past weekend working at a regatta in the Thousand Islands, and the folks who were supposed to come along to help backed out. Perfect! I'll do the stuff I needed to do during the day, and at night, I'll be alone with my thoughts at night 100 miles from home in a motel room in Alexandria Bay, NY...perfect! Hours of uninterrupted Deviant time! All I'd have to do is let my mind develop some ideas, and I'll work on them when I got settled, and.....

Nothing. Not a single topic, subject, short story...nothing...WTF. Understand, this guy is the one kid in classes all through school who HATED to write. But once I got started, look out, it just flowed. To be honest, I was just too tired from the week at work. Couple that with my interrupted sleep patterns at night, I was just too tired to even THINK straight. So...I just wound up watching online porn, err...EDUCATIONAL MATERIAL, until I couldn't hold my eyes open any more.

Not even a simple photo idea.

I've often said, I'm bothered by the fact that I just don't feel right looking at, and commenting on, other peoples' works without contributing something of my own. And to be honest, I'm kind of tired looking at what little I HAVE posted. And with my absolute favorite deviant, Raven, and her husband pulling the plug on their account before I could say "good bye", well, I think the fire went out. Or at least, got dampened down.

Could someone loan me a muse? Hey, I'm bi, so gender doesn't matter!! This is getting frustrating.

Of course, a good night's sleep would do wonders. I fall asleep at a normal time, then I'm up at 1 or 2, tossing and turning and thinking of random shit that doesn't matter, and letting my head fill up with confusion until I have to get up and go watch some TV for an hour to clear my head. At least I'm finally watching the most recent season of Deadliest Catch on the DVR. (4 more to go! Then I think I have a few NCIS episode stored.) To make matters worse, I have Seasonal Affected Disorder, so it's only going to get worse. Anyone around at that hour for light discussion?

Then, to top it all off, I have no good way to wrap this up. Oh, I had a great closing 3 days ago, but again...timing.

Things went ok last week, except for the original journal that WAS to have appeared here.......didn't.

I missed you all. Some more than others, but who am I to discriminate?

Feeling a bit rushed right now, so this little snippet will have to suffice.

I do love the notes you send to me, I feel so good when you take to time out of YOUR busy days to write me. I always answer, BTW...

I'm officially on vacation this week. However, I volunteered to help out at a function that goes all week. I happily volunteered when the organizers asked me last...oh....JANUARY.

But...now tomorrow is the big day, and I feel ...meh. I'll be gone from home all week, so it'll be more like a working vacation than anything else.

Ever get in one of those situations? Hopefully, I'll get into the swing of things once the tedium of the set up of all the facilities is done, and my lodging is settled.

See you next week!